The last 8 months, or so, have been a long struggle to say the least. Overall things for the wife and I are improving. Last night as we headed to bed she asked that proverbial question most of us dread. “Are you happy?” After lingering near the bush for a bit, I finally gave her the most simple and honest answer I could. “No.”
Sure some things have improved. I am communicating more, and better. She is mostly listening and attempting not to be a narcissist. The verbal abuse and belittlement has also lessened. Others, like codependency, have stayed about the same. Yet I am fairly certain that I am in the place where I have to be in life overall.
I have come to the firm opinion that most of us have taken so many twists and turns along the road of life that we pretty much are where we are. We could take a turn in a different direction, but the reality is that it would probably be worse overall. I have already summarized this in another post circumstances, choices, or luck?.
Where am I headed with all this?… As usual I am not really sure. It seems like a lot of people are, or know someone who, is going through an eerily similar situation. Maybe for most of us there cannot be true happiness. Sometimes things are simply as good as it is going to get.